What comfort I could feel anon

If I would only stray a bit,
Then ease my lot would be;
But I recall how Christ my Lord
Did suffer faithfully.
The world I have forever left
And severed all its ties;
The way may yet more narrow grow
And all against me rise.
But though the worldlings glare in rage;
I seek His smiling face.
Though outward glory others choose,
I, His “well done” through grace.
My heart’s desire is not for fame
Nor profit in these days;
I humbly wish to serve my Lord
And gain that day His praise.
Unto the judgment seat of Christ
I daily look away;
May all my living and my work
Abide the fire that day.
You may your reputation hold,
Wealth, friends, and glory gain;
You may win all success and praise,
A following great obtain.
But I would be but lonely, poor,
With no prosperity;
My heart desires to follow Him
And finish faithfully.
My Lord, when here on earth, I know,
Gained nothing but the cross.
I only hope to be like Him
And for Him suffer loss.
My glory’s in the coming age,
Today I’ll patient be.
I’d ne’er enjoy ahead of Him
This world’s prosperity.
That day I shall receive the crown,
He’ll wipe away my tears.
So faithfully I’ll journey on
Till He at length appears.

San Juan, M.M., Philippines

My hope is not that I be great;

My hope is not success.

I wish to humbly serve my Lord

That day so He can bless.

...My wish is His "well done." Matt.25:21

Jon Yao

Irvine, CA, United States

Praise You Lord! You're everything to me! My heart also desires to follow Him and finish faithfully, Because He is everything to me! He is just too precious and sweet, always supplying me with Himself! Praise You Lord the way to follow You is so ENJOYABLE! Praise You for the BODY!

We should be content to be small and should not try to be great. According to the Lord's word in Matthew 13:31-32, we should not be a great tree but a small herb that is nourishing food. The parable in these verses speaks of a mustard seed that becomes a great tree. According to Genesis 1:11-12, every plant must be according to its kind. Because mustard is a small herb, a mustard seed that becomes a tree is no longer according to its kind and thus violates the controlling principle. We naturally desire to be great, but for the church this is against God's principle. However, organized Christianity seeks to be great. If we become like that, we are through with life, we have violated God's principle, and we cannot be nourishing food to feed others like the small mustard plant. We are constantly under the temptation to be great. Especially in the United States the young people are taught to seek to be great by developing their talents and abilities. After Brother Nee was excommunicated, he wrote a hymn that says, "My heart's desire is not for fame / Nor profit in these days" Few Christian workers can say this.

Matthew 7:21-23 says, "Not everyone who says to Me, Lord, Lord, will enter into the kingdom of the heavens, but he who does the will of My Father who is in the heavens. Many will say to Me in that day, Lord, Lord, was it not in Your name that we prophesied, and in Your name cast out demons, and in Your name did many works of power? And then I will declare to them: I never knew you. Depart from Me, you workers of lawlessness." We need to be assured that what we have done is not lawlessness but the will of the Father.

That day in verse 22 refers to the day of the judgment seat of Christ. When Watchman Nee was excommunicated by some of the co-workers in the early years of his ministry, he wrote a hymn that says, "Unto the judgment seat of Christ / I daily look away; / May all my living and my work / Abide the fire in that day." Only the living and work that are Christ can withstand the fire. We should seriously consider whether or not the Lord will approve our living and work at His judgment seat.